So I feel like I live a dual or even more life. Most anyone who knows me, knows me as the above person. The loud, out there, confident, larger than life Steven. Only a couple people know the Steven out side of that. I’m actually quite insecure, I can be very quite, and I’ll even be shy. I’m never sure if there is a real and fake side to me tho. I’m comfortable either way. I feel like either personality doesn’t give the full picture. Idk 
I’m tiered!
So the last time I was on here I was all excited. Since then I learned that excitement is just asking to be let down. I went on a couple other dates like that. The best way I described it is: Cuddling leads to more, and I end up a whore. I decided to stop with this life, because I’m not making this a habit. I’m going to immerse myself in art and just personal upkeep. My room has been a mess for over a straight month. It has moved from my room to the hallway. Soon the whole floor I live on will be destroyed I’m not careful! Kind of like my life in general… If I’m not careful I’ll watch my life fall apart at the seams. I don’t even know who reads this! I think this is more of a dairy then a blog.
Composition de Cochonfucius d’après une toile de Nik Helbig
L’aimable boucher offre un confortable lit
À la pucelle qui fréquente sa boutique.
Le corps de la génisse a des pouvoirs magiques
Si tu t’y introduis et oncques ne pâlis.
On sait que le boucher est un être à sang chaud ;
Les vierges de Paris, pour cela, le bénissent,
Pourvu que, dans la nuit, son talent ne faiblisse
(Mais Robert peut l’aider, il est pas mal costaud).
My body is my temple. This is spoken by many religions. Some people understand this. Others only to an extent. That quote isn’t saying keep yourself thin. Its saying treat yourself with respect. People don’t take care of themselves. They stay stupid, and hate themselves. It’s not a way to live. Everyone has value, and everyone can succeed. I’m not a religious person but i believe everyone needs to respect themselves. When i say respect i’m not saying we have to be conceded . Im not even saying we have to love who we are. We have to understand that we’re the only (insert your name here) and that their won’t be another. Some just don’t take care of themselves.
When I see a problem I like to fix it. I assume most people do the same. When it comes to the body. I see no difference. If someone doesn’t like something about themselves they need to fix it. People will sit and complain about a flaw they see in the mirror, but will never try and fix it. People are lazy. If your body is your temple. Then take care of it. If there is a cracked window in your temple replace it. You cannot wait for it to magically fix itself. Sometimes it can be hard. That just gives you more of a reason to do it. Addictions come to mind. Almost everyone knows how bad things like pot, cigarettes and alcohol are for you, but they still do it. Some do not care. This is awful because it’s the only body you have. They have a hard time quitting. Nothing worth gaining was ever received easily. They try and take the easy road. And it is short. They refuse to change, they refuse to learn. They are stupid.
Knowledge is limited, stupidity is endless. I’ll never be able to fathom how people stay uninformed. As a society we let media guide us into things. They tell us new fads, they tell us what is “hot”. They tell us who is beautiful and who is not. People even know that this is what is happening, and they let it. Thats what really shows how bad our race can be. Plenty of people say how we are mindless followers of the media, and they still take part in the richural. How bad is it when you even know you’re doing wrong and choose to still do it. Part of this is being stubborn. If people opened their minds up, they looked at things in a different way; we could be a better society. Everyone is quick to judge. We start to guess who a person is before we even hear them speak. If only we looked at things with a different angle; felt how others feel. If we could research instead of assume, we would be way better. You cannot have a temple without a leader. A leader has to be wise. He has to think for himself and be reasonable. You are the leader of your temple. If your leader is bad in any way, people will stop attending the temple. Then the temple will fall. Are you a good leader? Do you know about the things you love, and do you know about the things you hate? Do you fully know what you are talking about? Do you think about all possible outcomes, and maintain a cool? Do you know how great you are?
Everything has beauty, but it takes the right person to see it. Some people can’t change their flaws and some can’t be educated. So you have to love and accept yourself for who you are. I absolutely hate when people call themselves fat. They need to know they are beautiful. We let the media tell us what is beautiful and follow their idea to a “T”. Dont let someone else tell you what beauty is. Dont ever let anyone tell you what you should, or shouldn’t be. We will pick on ourselves mercilessly and hate ourselves over things that we “should” be. You have to respect yourself. We can not just treat yourself like dirt over things so trivial. Were all made unique and not meant to be the same. There are always quirks and things were bad at. Its what makes us human. If a temple is old and imperfect, you still have to respect it. It’s the only temple you have, and there is always value in it. There is a value in every single person.
We are all we have left. We are strong, smart, and the only species we know like us. When respecting who you are, you have to respect others. When you can respect who you are for your flaws, then you have to understand that everyone else is on that same journey. You cant hurt people to make yourself feel better. When you truly respect your self , i think this point comes in automatically. We are all different, that’s what makes our species unique. Well that, and we have the brain power like none other that we know of. When you respect yourself you don’t bring yourself down to that kind of level of peddy judging. You stand tall and let people see that you’re better than that. People will admire you and possible bring a change to the way they think.
We worry too much, and all for what? Life is a journey and the ending is hopefully happiness. We can’t be happy when we hate who we are. We can sometimes change who we are, if we take that challenge. Other times we have to accept who we are for all are imperfections. We could always stay dumb and happy, and risk the fall of society. We could hate everything different and risk the fall of society. We could be mindless followers of media and risk the fall of society. I believe were better than that. I believe that we are each unique and need to respect who we are. This journey is doesn’t last forever, and we have to make the most of it. Dont make it a boring road trip, when it can be an exciting tour.
Yo quiero sentir tus labios (I want to feel your lips). Ok so ive been obbsesed with Elvis Crespo’s Suavemente (Video) (Translation). I don’t know how to speak Spanish, but for this song I’m learning. I love love love it! I mean who doesn’t love kissing? Well, if its done right. I like a “deep kiss, that will reach my soul”. I’m not a fan of any of that fast, stupid stuff. Maybe i go awkwardly slow (I’ve never had anyone complain either way), but to have that kind of connection , weather it be with your significant other, or someone you just meet, its nice. Just to enjoy being close, being together, as to those quick pecks. Their cute sometimes but it gets old. Epically when you want to kiss and their to busy moving around. “Without haste and calmly.” I’ve stopped someone mid kiss for doing this, I realized after that its not the most polite thing to do, but oh well 😛 . I can’t wait to learn this song because you better believe I’m going to be using it. “I tell you only, I want one thing…Kiss me.”
This song (Monster by Imagine Dragons http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=w5tWYmIOWGk ) is my life. I relate to life every lyric. Later I’ll have to get into details 😛 enjoy
People hate to much. Everyone deserves a chance. Weather were taking about a relationship, or just a random person. Also happy late MLK day!
With every date we have that little hope that this is the “one”. I mean it’s only natural. Every animal goes on one journey or another for their mate. The thing that makes us unique, is we think and feel ( the blessing and curse of being a human). So some spend their whole life looking for it. That missing piece to their puzzle. Some we find just don’t work, while others break us into pieces. It’s all part of the journey. I feel like this year is the start to my journey. It’s crazy, in one month I’ve has so many possible contenders that fell through for one reason or the next. It leaves me thinking “what the hell is wrong with me!” Then I remember it’s all part of this journey, and for some reason I continue to still have this drive. So I’ll continue the cycle and one day I’ll get that perfect man, or die trying. I wish the same to you… Happy Hunger Games! And may the odds be ever in your favor.
GIRL, IM GETTING HOME AT 6AM! So I was texting this guy a little I met online and he decided to take me for dinner. Yeah that was boring, we went to Chipotle. So on the way to his house the windshield icees up. This is because he doesn’t have heat in it. At his house I saw a hooka and a bar, my eyebrow was raised. He’s great tho! We ended up cuddling and just a great night. He picked me up around 8 so I spent almost 10 hours with him. It’s funny Facebook does this thing where it shows my ex on my available people to chat. I looked at him and laude l laughed. I really could be over him. I needed someone who isn’t trying to change me. Someone who doesn’t mind I have a belly (even tho he argues with me). Well we’ll how this goes. Goodnight!
The journey 